moving ....(yuck)

| Friday, September 29


i hate moving or even thinking about moving.....by the end of october i'll be moving to another city...a bigger city....yeahh!!! but i'm not so up on the packing part (...as if anybody gets off on this, right?) but anyway, its wearing on me.... for 2 years i have not had a decent thanksgiving holiday and barely a x-mas because i'm moving from one place to the other due to my job.

and it is not helping that i love things...a lot of things...i'm a hoarder (if that's a word)..... but i "hoard" good, useful and pretty meaningful things....plants, pictures, fabric, cookware, furniture, etc......i'm a little "home maker". but packing all that shit up ain't fun.

so anyway i gotta end this blog and go search for an apartment online...seeee i ain't even got an apartment lined up yet and i'm freakin out about packing/moving.
i need to settle down for a while somewhere...

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and i was a b.i.t.c.h.

| Tuesday, September 26

but she made me do it.....lol.

she came @ me with assumptions, an attitude, and didn't have her facts straight. i was way too busy for that kinda shit soooo.....in a nice enough way (....in my "mother dear"--my grandmother's voice--nice, quite and sweet) i let her have it. sorry boo.

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just a gadget guurrll...

| Monday, September 25


can't stop thinking about this one....i looovvveee gadgets....

surfing through the internet yesterday afternoon i ran up on this site popgadget . this phone hooks up to your laptop, its wireless, and free using your instant messaging program (such as msn or yahoo)...hmmm... this is great for singles and people that are on the go like myself. my main source of communication is my cell --i'm not a phone person...plus i don't want to pay for anything that i don't use often...this sounds nice.

i may have to invest.......

.........oh and for those people who forget about their anniversaries (like myself-- never was really good with dates or anniversaries or shit like that.) they have a ring that will alert you. so you will never forget when that first date was or the first time you had coffee together, again.....

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my trip in and around d.c.

| Saturday, September 23

i finally figured out the tricks on my camera....hey, better late than never.

yes...it's taken me a couple of days to record this. i've been so busy and had other things on my mind that i have neglected this blog entry....please bare with me cuz i'm gonna put this all in one blog....

all i can say is.....aminah(1) and inez(4)......

i forgot how little kids can be so fun....they weren't there the whole 7 days but they were a lot of fun--and i kinda missed them when they left. my plans when i got to d.c were to go to as many bars and see as much as i could, but i enjoyed them more than i did @ the martini lounge(yuck). although i didnt go to the "promise land" (my brother n law's term for U/18st.)...i heard that area was on. anyway, we stayed in a cute little apartment off of S/18th owned by my brother in law's friends parents, we frequented the Italian bistro right across the street, that has the best dip for their suduk(???can't remember for sure?) pizza .

so "up in there" is my new phase for the moment.... what does a 4 year old know about "up in there"....lol. but she's one of the most intelligent kids i know(not that i know many), but she had mentioned something about a few of her ancestors and my mouth just dropped, cuz when i was in skool(pronounced the way inez would say it...) we were never taught anything like that (....note to self :.....), and aminah her little sister was da daaada? da daa da. da-ing and it sounded soooo cute! we took them to the national arboretum to run around and tire out and i found my bonsai exhibit ...yo the bonsai designer(john naka) that i had mentioned in my past blog "wabi-sabi", die in 2004......well, it was an old program. but ironic tho...

i took a few pictures--of course my cord is @ the job so i'll download photos later.....

all and all i loved my trip didn't like d.c. as much as "murland" (it's so green, i loved it)....but what's up with the 3 police cars, 1 ambulance, 1 firetruck with a yellow barrier tape wrapped around the whole block?? (same amount every time) in d.c.???.....it seemed like every street we tried to go through some shit was going down..??lol....aye i thought l.a. was bad.

.....oh and whoever heard of a safeway with no parking lot??? hello...???

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hickey, hickey, hickey, awwww.....sh*t.

| Thursday, September 21




it took about 3 weeks but guess what???.... i got the promotion i was lookin for. a teir 5 store, this means i'll be working with nothing but designer diggs......this is like the bev. center but not in l.a.. won't be making as much as the people shopping there but i really enjoy what i do and that's okay for now. (hope they have those $15 designer racks that i had grown so accustom to.)

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imagine....

| Wednesday, September 20



note: i wrote this weeks ago but i guess i was shy about something???....i don't know??? i'm putting it out now. enjoy....

talking to my sister last night about the last blog i put out (sex kitten/school teacher) we had tapped on a really intense conversation on imagination and how people either try to hide it , can't tolerate it, or are embarrassed by it, to me i think that this is part of a persons truest form its what makes one different from person to person--maybe it's the artist in me. people can be so serious 24/7 they forget the reason why they are put on this earth? to enjoy it.... i mean my sister can't except her overly romantic character.... constantly reading bodices rippers novels (you know......you've seen them....a scanty dressed woman and fabio caressing her in his arms type of book) for the fact that she will be considered as some whimpy whimsical romantic. the thing is i adore that in her, that's what makes her who she is, i can always tell her about how i'm fellin about some dude (cuz i crush alot...lol) and she could always understood how and why was feelin this way and tap into the romance in it all. me.....i'm the other way around when i go there---my thoughts go more with the paranormal more scientific---my favorite movie is "contact" the dispute between science and religion...but yet beautifully imaginative, and romantic in its own way. so i can relate to her thought process.

isn't that why you want to protect your kids from this cold cruel world? so they can image and play? and.....it doesn't leave you once you hit 18 or something.....i can see it in my mother at times, it brings her down to another level to where all of her 8th grade students thinks she is cool ass hell.

you gotta go there sometimes--if you try to stifle it, you are not living.....

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this lady will surely be missed....

| Tuesday, September 19



yesterday while waiting in the airport for hours trying to get back home from d.c. i was reading octavia e. butler last book "fledgling".

i have been a big follower of this writer since the early 90's, i believe if i rummage around in the garage at my parents house i'd probably find my signed copy of "parable of the sower"....i found out something about her main characters in her books--they are always strong black women, that are extremely intelligent, can handle themselves in the most extreme situations and they know how to do things other than look cute. i have always wanted and i believe all women should be capable of handling myself in all types of environments without freaking out. another thing about her is she always has her girls thinking ahead and planning their next move. i think that's what i like most about her--i'm that way myself--i'm from cali and im always looking out for earthquake situations or anything of that matter. silly i know but you always have to be aware of your surroundings.
planning? funny that i mentioned that.....i got my tarot cards read in d.c. at a bar called "the red and black" and he had mentioned that i had just been through a big break up and i was making future plans and sowing seeds for myself-working on myself (the card had a women in a garden)....how did he know that????...but i guess that is not that unusual.

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it's been a long time....i forgot that i was fine.(first take of d.c.)

| Saturday, September 16

i've been approached and flirted with more in the few days i have been here in d.c than the two years i have lived in hicktown usa.

one time, i didn't even know i was getting hit on until my friends had to tell me...a cutie in the grocery store was flirting--it went right over my head--i was never really good at that sorta thing--you almost have to sit me down and spell it out for me.

got a few more days left here--got many things to write about.

arrivederci per ora!!!!

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wabi-sabi

| Saturday, September 9




the art and science of bonsai.

i think i'm going to buy a bonsai tree. i had one once about 3 years ago, but didn't know what the hell i was doing, it didn't do too well at all. i only bought it because i have always been intrigued by its beauty, but now i am also fascinated by its-upbringing.

this evening i was flipping through channels and they had this program on the access tucson channel---sorta like a knock off of the pbs station, they usually have some pretty interesting things on....but the programs are usually about 5 years old--more, but anyway they had any episode on bonsai trees

when i first started watching i thought that what they were doing to this tree was pure torture, i mean how they had to cut and split part of the trunk to form a branch, binding the smaller branches by wrapping it with copper or aluminum wire (check it out) . but as i continued to watch it was sort of dramatically romantic in a way(nowadays i find everything romantic....and if you knew me you'd know, i was not programmed with that sorta chip).

after watching the program i found out what my first mistake was with my poor bonsai....its an outdoor plant and i watered it way too much and the fact that its location was in my bathroom made it worse......this time i think i'm going to go even further with this next bonsai attempted--i'm going to try to form and shape it myself (the designer in me)...i think i can do it.

when i think of this whole process i think of it like the development of a child or a relationship....forming and shaping to grow into a wonderful beautiful person or thing.....just a thought, don't quote me.

but maybe before i attempted my bonsai, i should pot the saguaro sitting in a paper bag on my balcony, yet still growing without soil? somehow????

the producers of the program had mention that these bonsai's were located in a museum in d.c..... ironically i'll be out there next week---must check that out.

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just a interesting and funny email i recieved yesterday......

| Friday, September 8



Water or Wine?

It has been scientifically proven that if we drink 1 litre of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli (E. coli) bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of Doo Doo. However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine (or rum, whiskey, beer or other liquors) because alcohol has to go through a distillation process of boiling, filtering and fermenting.


WATER = Doo Doo

WINE = HEALTH


Free yourself of Doo Doo, drink WINE!!! It is better to drink wine and talk Doo Doo than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information, I am doing this as a public service. Have a nice day........
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here, here.......i beleieve that ice has its fair share of e. coli also....ice = water...get it?

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ahhh...another moverover, another hotel.....

| Tuesday, September 5





one good thing about this hotel---free wireless internet...

but i hate sleeping in unfamiliar beds, eating tons of fast food, and and the long hours....but i did find a trader joe's up the street so i'm kinda happy about that.

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sex kitten or school teacher???

| Friday, September 1



okay this is just some stuff that i just thought up off the top of my head......so bare with me......

sex kitten or school teacher...
are you either one or the other?......to me a sex kitten is the one who will talk and flirt and flaunt around talking a good game but when it comes down to it they are extremely shy and unsure.

the school teacher is that shy, can be in/extroverted type of girl she never reveals things on a high scale, and since she so shy...for her to move its gotta take a lot of passion in whatever she does.

and?.....there are just shy girls and just really flirtatious girls--but i doubt it.....

me....? well .......my kitten and teacher are having a big fight down the hall. i think i'm a little of both (i am the sex kitten and the school teacher)....i don't reveal much-yet i do(smile).... i can be very forward and back down cus i'm shy.....and definitely not a prude. my question is how can you control it, if you can switch from role to role? due to certain circumstances i should be reserved but i can't....it would all be a lie and that's what i'm fighting, which one is my dominate role so i can be like--and.....? yeah...? so...? whatever.....? and just own it....

just looking for my balance........if there is one...eeee?????

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energy.....



its 1:35 in the morning and i should be sleep. but this evening i mistakenly found out some interestingly wonderful, sexy, romantic, makes my heart flutter info on a person...and now that i have knowledge of this, it's definitely going to be difficult for me to keep up my normal persona.

energy....or aura of a person is pure and true to form when you can be near it and can feel it. having the opportunity to experience such a vibe and to put it into words....is beautiful and very fortunate. i don't think a picture could do it any justice, you know?.......unless described with words.....which i believe makes the picture more intense.
i think i'm jealous......

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