it finally got cold today........

| Tuesday, November 28



wonder how long this will last?

i downloaded my sisters robin thick cd this vacation....he has taken off where chico left off and where marvin started.....yes...i know he's a white dude but if you listen.....ladies you would know....pls teach me a lesson....i also like to teach lessons from time to time...lol.

oh and ("dumb as rocks"????) .....i was on this dudes blog site today and what he had said at first was funny but after i awhile i'm thinkin that's kinda messed up......like his ass is perfect....i think that people perceive people who don't have "high end" office jobs as illiterate or dumb...he mentioned that he had decided to be the "young black professional" girl.....grrrr...i hate that word as well as baps (black american princess)......you just totally eliminated artist or unconventional types of professions.....a few years back my sister was all into her sorority/fraternity parties....i could have shot everyone of those brothas up in that place. they think that there better than everyone else...wtf!!!! you don't know who your suppose to be with....my mother is the writer and is married to builder.....ying /yang.
and i'm out.....

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he's too complicated, she's not complicated...but i'm too...

my dad has made it hard on me to find...no...except anything but the highest. i am old fashion and a liberal.....can that be done????....yes....lol



i get a call from my ex every few days talking about he misses me and all, and i really feel bad...he didn't cheat or lie....he just didn't show up when i needed him.....i've never had to deal with something like this, and it's hard for me to handle. (it's been 6 months...those damn persistent sag's never let nothin go)

as soon as my father found out that i was moving he had booked a flight out for one day just to help me move...i didn't ask, it was booked and he was there.


where can i find a brotha like that? a few years ago i had come upon this theory that people who had both parents in the house should meet a girl/guy who was in a single home family to learn and balance the whole black family unit but.....i'm sorry..... i'm finding if your not conscious about what you want and willing to listen, learn and do what it takes then what's the use???

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viixen

i'm so late on this one.....if i rocked gold i'd wear these....i love the eat me drink me necklace......


















ghetttooo.......
designed by kidada jones
oh and parental discretion advised....they will make anything for an ipod........ohmibod.....

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| Monday, November 27




potete cadere nell'amore con qualcuno attraverso il loro blog???? ho fatto quella realizzazione.



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a little bit of ecstasy...

| Sunday, November 26

...was the song that helped me redeem myself...



i can dance....people have seen me dance.....i use to be a major "vip" type club head a few years ago....i've got proof....really...but this last week i was questioned (and laughed at) on my dance abilities....i spent a great spanksgiving vacation night with my 3 sisters playing "dance, dance, usa/or revolution" or whatever it was....i started horribly gettin e's for effort...but with a little practice i was on my way seein at least b's instead of e's....i love this game.....there should be a way to download current song and use them....this would be great for quaint parties with friends.

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signs

| Saturday, November 25



Leo's: i deeply love them but i'm a bit too brash for them...the one leo that i know (other than my parents) gets his feelings hurt too easily....it's my blunt sag/moon.


Sagittarius's: my friend to the end no matter if their the home bodied ones or the totally i'm down for anything kind(note: there are levels of how strong your sign is...i notice it more with sag's...has a lot to do with what planet your moon sign is in.)



Aquarius's: damn.....i 've only met a few men in this sign and everyone of them seem to keep a hold on my heart that last for years...all i know is that they are hard to get over....i'm attracted to them but, i never really knew if they were attracted to me?.....they hide their feelings...for what? i don't know....we all fall in love, we all get our hearts broken (that's a part of life...and i wouldn't change it for the world..it's beautiful)



Gemini's: are bi-polar (thats what my friend B says....lol)....but if you want an exciting relationship with no down time those are the people for you.



Aries: as i myself an aries....you've got your "tryin to play shy" ones and your "i'm the life of the party".....pls note i am not the life of the party.....dated an aries but we were more like friends than anything else....introduced me to Buddhism/Hinduism....i'll never forget that...i really hurt his feelings when i called it quits. but, i thinks it was more of being rejected that upset him the most....those damn ego's(i got one too)


Virgo's: i only know of one and we have known each other since high school...had a big crush on him back then and a lil one now....he has always been my what if???....very sweet and has a ton of friends...like Aquarius (i admire that ).....very faithful when in relationships, will say anything at the most inopportune time doesn't hold back for shit but i think that has to do with his leo moon.

Libra, Capricorn's, Scorpio's, Cancer's , Pisces's....i have really never dated...except my first boyfriend's a cancer.....can't remember sh*t about that.....

i'm all fire...with a lil bit of water(cancer rising) that i fight constantly....

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black friday...

| Friday, November 24



the reporters couldn't get enough of repeating that god awful word in every sentence last night on the news as i was waiting in the airport for my flight back home. what the hell does this mean???reading the post this morning their definition of this is---the profit turn by retailers, or the mood evoked by the customers after standing in the cold since 5 am waiting for best buy and walmart to open, but i believe it was created by the folks who work @ best buy/walmart.....people who have to work that day and deal with this very moody, deranged customer.


i love my job except two days out of the year.

i got into work @ 5 am......i've got 5 and a 1/2 more hour left to go.....oh what to do? i definitely don't what to go out in that mess up stairs. i think it's ridiculous for my department to be required to be in this store today we are absolutely no help....doing nothing but getting in the way.

folks are crazy getting up at the crack of dawn for something that they can get @ 11am and it will still be the same prize and a stock full in the back....dumb. i think it's a sin.

and why does it have to be called "black" friday.....why not red friday....grey friday....blue friday....something other than black.

1005am okay so i lied the waffle makers for $9.99 sold out.....3 hours to go.


so i was helpful....was summoned to crank up the x-mas music....gotta go.....happy spanksgiving weekend!

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around the corner....

| Tuesday, November 21


haus.
i love this place.....there's a few things in my hive that are in this store.
they sell everything but clothes.
okay and why am i so in love with alice smith....she is in heavy rotation on my ipod....but she could sure use a stylist.

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you must have been raised in church?

| Sunday, November 19




yeah...but i haven't been in a while..
that was the dudes line yesterday.......lol. had to lie and tell him i was in a long distant relationship ....pls note: i haven't been with daniel since april, lied just to get him off that subject.

you mean you don't have any kids and cute too...someones gonna latch on to you quick out here.....lol...yeah right only if i let them. we as (african americans) have trained ourselves to have all kinds of babies without getting married (or short ass marriages) and whenever someone says sh*t like that i have to correct them. no kids until i'm marriage (to me that's just str8 selfish to the kid). and the only way i'm gonna have kids is by marriage with no divorce...i don't believe in divorce. and this dudes only understanding for me to be single and not have kids is that i was raised in church.... hello...that wasn't it.

yesterday i was also complemented on my hair by an older white lady but she asked different questions from your regular hair questions (how did you get your hair like that) which i can't remember (sorry...i know that was an important fact) but whatever her question was made me want to answer her....and come to find out she was on kemo....she's obsessed by hair......i know i would be too.... when you lack something, you notice what you want everywhere on everyone else...hope all goes well with her.

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secrets of mine

| Friday, November 17



someones blog awhile ago, i can't remember who's it was....maybe (mc w/a day j-o-b) , said that they hadn't told their close friends/relative or something about their blog.

well, today i just told my very close sister about my blog.....it's takin me a couple months to give her the address.. i hadn't told anybody but a few other bloggers and that's it. my reason??? i was never known for my writing skillz, and sometimes you just want to be anonymous for a while and plus its hard, yo...to express how you fill completely to someone you have known all your life.

she said that she laugh, cried, would definitely want to read more. sooo....i feel good..she's a known poet in the bay area so that means a lot to me.

on another note: i have become my old boss JIM.

i can remember a few years back hearing and getting into tiffs or more like "cat fights (male/female)" about missing tools from your tools box and sure enough you'd always find them on or in my bosses desk drawer. Back in the day i had my own little cart with my all the tools you can think of on them (and i would spray red paint on all my tools just so there would be no mistakes). that use to piss me off finding my tools on his desk.

i could just hear what they are sayin about me....oh well, i don't have a tool box.....but i 'll try to put things back and make my own tool drawer in my office.( i know how it feels)

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the knock on the door...

| Wednesday, November 15

my dad had told me that the next time he came into town that i need to have chucked my old tv that was just moved into my new living room sitting there blinking and showing no picture, and was told to buy a new one....so friday as i was hauling out the old clucker and i ran upon this couple that i can relate to (my skin tone and locks) they helped me with the door and we were on our way.

this evening as i was looking for my memory stick--which i still can't seem to find (see....this is the reason why i hate moving...you can't find sh*t ) and playin "it don't work like that" by bugz in the attic (drop) when there was as knock at my door...a bit hesitanted i opened the door and there stood the dude who helped me with the door on friday. he was curious about what i was playin and was happy to find people like himself that lived around these parts --as i too--come to find out .....well, it looks like the city that i moved to ain't any better than where i moved from.......damn i miss l.a.

but i'm happy...two poeple who look like me in town....that's a start.

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miss q'in

| Tuesday, November 14



ain't she the purtiest, i would kill to get dem brows (diva-ish).

when heading out to my car to go to my second home (home depot) to buy vinyl and spray paint for the j-o-b, i realized that i forgot my ipod in my purse in the office so i went sifting through what little cd's i had left in the car and found my old zap mama "ancestry" cd. while driving to "h.d." i forgot how much i love zap's music...it's for the girls...very uplifting, and it also had me thinking this would be good music for little kids but still cool enough for adults.


would love to see them live, that would be classic.

oooh and home depot should come up with some kind of delivery service....as much as i love browsing from aisle to aisle looking at the wonderful power tools sometimes i wish i could just call, place my order and ~wha la~ their at my door step.

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oooh...he's cute...i wonder if he likes black girls????

| Sunday, November 12

i found myself asking that question to myself with one of my African American co workers...mind you...i am also A.A. i find myself wondering that question more than ever nowadays...but that's a whole other blog.

so....i gotta slight crush on one of my co workers....i didn't know until this friday when he came to the job and i got a lil excited and a bit nervous. he's not quite my type--way too tall for my taste....i find that i like dudes my height(5' 11") or shorter.....it's all about "proportion".....taller guys proportion seem off....most of them have those skinny ass legs that go on for days....plus i like guys who can handle a taller women.

yes, i wandered off the subject.....but anyways, this guy makes up for his height with his cute face and good ass taste...and wouldn't you know it....he's from the east coast...sucker for east coast dudes.

he seems like a cool guy to hang out with and the fact that i just moved to this area....don't know if he's married or dating someone(duh.....i should check to see if is wearing a ring...note to self).....he would be the perfect guide he always talking about these different restaurants and bars....but i'd basically would only want to be friends with him....but i can't lie...he is cute, but would never go there with him.

fin.

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coming out of my shell.

| Wednesday, November 1



if you have checked out my profile lately....i have put an actual photo of myself for the world to see....yes sorta blured....but hell, im still learning how to breathe. i admire people who can just post pictures of themselves on blogs and profiles when they create them, but i'm kinda shy and it kinda takes time for me...i gotta know what i'm gettin myself into before i open up like that. so here i am in all my crown and glory-yet still sorta blured.

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a new found realization









i have come to a realization that i don't like to sew, i just hate sitting there in front of a sewing machine i get anxious.....what i need to do is find a person who just gets off on sewing...i love pattern making i can do that all day, its just that sittin there "trying to sew the pattern together" part.....maybe i have a.d.d or something?....lol....so note to self....*find seamstress*. hey @ least i have found out what the problem is.....


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on a another note this is my little friend niobe.....
see that little orange crumpled up piece of paper @ her paws? that's her toy and will place that anywhere that i am-anytime of the day (4am) so we can play fetch......that's my little dog/cat..... but en--ee-ways she needs to get herself a job.....pet deposit is ridiculous.
found a place.... (yes i know its the end of the month...i'm a big procrastinator).....the only thing i'm worried about is this apartment doesn't have as much storage space as the place i have now....ikea here i come......





HAPPY HALLOWEEN........














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